The Country Without a Post Office

I am being rowed through Paradise on a river of Hell: Exquisite ghost, it is night.
The paddle is a heart; it breaks the porcelain waves...

I'm everything you lost. You won't forgive me.
My memory keeps getting in the way of your history.
There is nothing to forgive. You won't forgive me.
I hid my pain even from myself; I revealed my pain only to myself.
There is everything to forgive. You can't forgive me.
If only somehow you could have been mine,
what would not have been possible in the world?

[Agha Shahid Ali]

Science vs. Yourself

Choosing your (my) thesis topic is quite like choosing what kind of woman to be: interesting or pretty.

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Some may argue you can be both.

-------> Update (a few hours later)

Mika sings the theme song for the new movie: Kick-Ass (which, said aside, seems quite interesting). 'We're young', I think is called. It says:

We're young. We're strong.
We're not looking for where we belong.
We're not cool. We are free.
...

I particularly like the last line. I have never wished to be 'cool'. Instead, I have always wanted (or claimed to want) the freedom of being. Just being.

But, am I really beyond the need of public recognition? Can someone this ambitious and egocentric really live just with the satisfaction of having done her best? Or do I need more? Lately I've been feeling overwhelmed with stuff to do, and my biggest concern is giving a bad impression of my work. Is this concern valid?

I deserve a 'insert you favorite stuff here' which I can enjoy. I have earned that much. The right to enjoy what I do. Then, everything should be OK, I hope.

.. and I'd written more stuff that now seems pointless... just like what I wrote here.

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I think I'll go with 'pretty', despite my better judgment... I'm just playing in the safe side.