蝴蝶

昔者莊周夢為蝴蝶，栩栩然蝴蝶也，自喻適志與，不知周也。俄然覺，則蘧蘧然周也。不知周之夢為蝴蝶與，蝴蝶之夢為周與？周與蝴蝶則必有分矣。此之謂物化。

Infatuation

I'm thinking what I want to say, but I'm unable to say it.

something like the pleasure of killing a god

Doppo said he was in love with love. I am trying to hate hatred. I am trying to hate my hatred fro poverty, for falsehood, for everything.

* * *

Many are the criticisms that have been leveled at me, but they fall into three groups:

1. Bookish. A "bookish" person is one who prizes the power of the mind over the power of the flesh.
2. Frivolous. A "frivolous" person is one who prizes the beautiful over the useful.
3. Arrogant. An "arrogant" person is one who refuses to compromise his beliefs in deference to others.

* * *

Jousou must have sensed that the entire difference between himself and the dead occupant of the grave was as insubstantial as a shimmering wave of heat.

[Akutagawa Ryunosuke]